Nepal

They don't brake they honk. Kill a cow = life imprisonment. Kill a human = ten years. Understand the language? Not at all. Fanta for 90 cents NZ. New Zealand is not Australia. Can't see the mountains for the smog. Weddings on the side of the road. Traffic lights just flash red. Women wear traditional dress, men wear as much western clothes as they can. Fly into the airport and there are empty shells of planes sitting by the runway. There is a pizza place across from where I'm sitting advertising a 'Crazy Special' Pizza. They do all they can to get money. Incredible clothes and jewellery sold everywhere. Animals everywhere.

This place is crazy. Those are some first impressions. I'm meeting the other volunteers tonight for the first time which I'm really excited about. Training starts tomorrow. I'm trying to get over the jet lag. And the fear. And the lonely feeling. Thats the bit thats getting me most at the moment. Hopefully that'll change when I talk to the folks that feel exactly the same as me tonight. Until then I just got to trust myself that I can explore and not get lost. Extra. Thinking of you all. Stay safe.

Singapore

The flight was alright, food was alright, I could only watch films from half way through because my 'interactive mode' didn't work, I felt lonely and I screwed up major-like by leaving my wallet in Christchurch. Good move Sophie. So now I am in Singapore, feeling very brave, just had a sleep in a tiny room that smelt clean, it was lovely, its half past 6 here and I fell asleep at 7 last night. So I must have been tired. I'm excited about getting to Nepal now which is a promising sign.
Singapore Airport is huge. Even huger when you're by yourself. When I was on the classics trip it did'nt seem so big. There are giant fish. There is 24 hour starbucks. There is fancy technology shops everywhere. I can see planes and however many times I go places I still can't believe that they get up. I'm hoping for a window seat on the plane so I can see the mountains.

Sorry, this is a bit all over the place, probably cos I am.

But I'm safe, I'm feeling ok.

Hope anyone reading this is ok too, having a good saturday.

I miss you all so freaking much.
Especially Mark.
(Top work, Mark, you got a special mention!)
And my family.

Wish me luck!!

Freaking Out...

So, I lied, here is the next post, I am not in Singapore, rather, sitting at home with 17 days and 6 exams to go.

The point of this one is to tell you how much I do not want to do this, so when you read the ones where I am having an incredible time you can say 'wow, she has come so far!' Cos I think its unfair to hide away the crap feelings. So there.

I don't want to go I don't want to go I don't want to go I don't want to go I don't want to go I don't want to go I don't want to go I don't want to go I don't want to go.

But thats ok, once I'm there it will be awesome. And I bet all the nepalese kids want me there.